Everything "No"

Near 1 month already i din't talk and chat with 1 of my friend,
not just only no talk, even no hi no bye...
we just like enemy?
Sometimes i feel like do i wan to be good with her?
Be back friends?
I willing to~
But did she?
I know,
I done wrong too...
Seems like you told me all is over,
But why we just cannot be back friends?
I will care of my mouth,
I won't say people's bad again,
I know maybe U all cannot believe what i say again...
But this time was the true,
I will change ~

+another one+
(this want is saying other people)

I don't sad and I don't care that you don't no what I m thinking,
I don't care!
But you don't wan always non-stop hurting me,
I know i hurt you before and i hurt my friends very much,
But that's no use always saying me this and that...
I won't want to tell you about all my secrets,
But some times i really cannot control myself and i say out to you...
I hope you help me to keep this secret~
I say!!!
I will change myself to a new Tan Kai Joe~
I know my 2 really bad stuff is telling out people's secret and always saying friend's bad things~
But i will change...i will!!!~~~
N now i really hope to find a friends could hear me telling my heart~~~

Hello~~

This is not my 1st time write this blog at here,
I deleted all things at here,
Because....i wan start again....
I would like to use English to write my blog at here~

So, come view come view my blog~
N if can , please give some comments to what i wrote^^